I Miss You
So, I’m a little raw and in my feelings over this message I just received. I asked for permission to share, so I’m not putting anyone on blast. They said they didn’t mind. So, here it goes:
I miss just sitting with you. I miss you being open to me, curious about me, and in love with me. I miss both our small chats during the day and long talks at night.
I miss knowing that you’re thinking of me and how you can please me throughout the day. I miss you making me a priority. I miss you making me feel important to you - you know, how you say you want others to make you feel. That’s not being selfish, I’m just being honest.
I miss feeling seen and heard by you. I miss seeing you smile when I’d remind you how much I love and care for you. I miss you allowing me to comfort you when you’re hurting, instead of shutting me out. I miss being the first person you told things to. I miss being your person.
I miss seeing you light up after one of our talks, and watching you go and share with others what we talked about. I miss knowing that you were talking to your friends about me. ☺️ That never bothered me at all. In fact, that used to make me feel so good because at least I knew I was on your mind and made you happy.
I miss watching you look for ways to let others experience me through you. That’s how close we were. That even if they didn’t know me, they would want to get to know me because of how I made YOU feel.
Lately, I’ve been feeling like you’re keeping me a secret. You act like if people knew what we used to have, it would mess up other things that you have going on for you. Is there someone else? Are you embarrassed of what we had going on? I could be wrong, but that’s how I feel. I want you back. And this time I want you to love me loudly. I want you to love me boldly. I want you to seek to serve me, just like I aim to serve you in every area of your life.
You remain the love of my life, and that will never change. But if you want to experience the best of me and life in every way…you know where to find me. I never left.